WE CROSSED THE FUCKIN LINE

well today i was interrupted from my dreams at 8.35 by my dad . he knocked on my door , took the room key and unlocked the damned door and requested for me to let my lil bro play . i asked why should i let him play if he's just too afraid to even ask me by himself ? i also told him i can't sleep with the buzzing noise my hardware generates . he told me to go sleep in his room and let me bro play . i agreed n went to his room n just flopped down asleep .

woke up at 12.40 and realized that my bro has been playin for 4 hours . well for ur information , he's been fighting wit my younger sis ( and sumtimes my elder one too ) over the pc over the past few weeks , always arguing , always fighting and always having me to go out to solve it . there was once i offered my bro to use my pc when he was arguing wit my younger sis bcuz i knew he wud never win an arguement against that kiasu sister of mine who never wanna lose out or give way to anybody else in an arguement even when she's at the wrong . she's like me , you see ? anyway my bro rejected n said he duwan to play anymore n went down to watch tv instead .

recently , he's been slamming doors and cracking walls and smashing toys everytime he loses an arguement injustly . i've told him that no matter wat he shudnt just immediately resort to such a destructive action , i mean , it breaks my heart to see my own house ruined by pure anger alone , and im sure its the same for my parents . i've told him to apologize for his actions , but he always acts as if he didn't noe wat happened , and when i reminded him he wud just say `oh` and apologize half-heartedly .

that would piss me off , but i cudn't do much abt that . anyway .

just not long before im typing this out , the usual quarrel noises were heard outside my door . i went out instinctively , knowing that if i didn't go out they'd be quaralling for the rest of eternity and they'll just hurt each other . i got out , n found out my sis wat at the wrong ( she asked my bro to stop playing cuz he was eating ice-cream , but now she's eating ice-cream in the room playing after shooing my bro out ) . so i told my sis to hand it over after another 5 more minutes and she agreed easily .

5 minutes later , i heard irritating squablings outside again . louder than the previous one . annoyed , i rushed out to see wat the problem was and it turned out that my sis had asked my bro to alt+tab while he was waiting for his turn to enter the party quest in maple story ( parties take turn to enter a quest , one after the other ) . he had refused , so i asked him to let my sis do it ... after all it would be a while more before his turn came , wats wrg wit letting me sis use the queieing time rite ? so he said ok , and i went back to my room sighing , wondering when would this endless procedure reach a stop .

then another 5 minutes later i heard them arguing outside . i went out , n my sis n bro was scolding each other as if they were ready for a wrestle . i asked wat happened ? and my sis told me , his party members dumped him n left the party while he was semi-afking ( probably cuz he didnt reply when they talked wit him ) , and he had got so angry he messed my sister's neat bed up and sumthn about messing wit her homework . i told him , `you either fix what you screwed up and continue playing or you get lost and dont play at all` . it wasnt entirely my sister's fault for what happened to his party , it was the members itself who had chose to dump him just becaue he was afking for a short while . my bro got really angry and just said `ok i duwan to play anymore` n rushed out . i went back to my room , and then seconds later im out again - HE HAD KICKED THE WALL .

there , he stood , frozen in terror as he looked into my bewildered eyes . the devil within now had full control over me . i walked up to him with great strides , shoved him with harsh force and yelled at him . i yelled so terribly , i could hear the change in my own voice - I yelled so loud , that i think even Slipknot would've lost to me in a yeling competition . i could no longer recognize my own tongue .

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU !?
I GAVE YOU FOUR HOURS OF GAMING AND YOU WANT EIGHT .
IF I GIVE YOU EIGHT , YOU WANT SIXTEEN .
YOU HAVEN'T EVEN BLARDY APOLOGIZED FOR YOUR PREVIOUS ACTIONS .
AND YOU STILL DARE TO REPEAT IT !?
I'LL FUCKING PUNCH UR FUCKING FACE !!

i shoved him again . i could see his body boil red with anger . i could see that he wanted to fight back , but he didn't dare to lay a finger on me .

he ignored me and stomped down the stairs , eyes squeezed into thin killer ones . i took a step down the flight of stairs , then another . then i started dashng down the stairs after him . just as he was about to close the guest room door ( now his room ) , i placed my palm on the door and prevented it from slamming . i pushed it hard and it flung open , and my brother took a fearful step back . i yelled , yelled and yelled at him . he had crossed the limit of the line . computer !? what the fuck is so great about the computer !? what the fuck does he gains by playing that fucking game !? maple story !?!? why didn't the creators just named it I-FUCKING-RUINED-YOUR-BROTHER'S-MIND story !? its more fitting than god knows what the fuck maple story can mean .

i yelled and shoved my brother . i raised my fist and threatened to kill him . threatened to punch him so hard he'd look ten times worse than a pudge does . then my mother came in . she was but a pest to me back then . i knew she would interfere and stopped me from scolding that brat .

but no . she did not . for once , she sided me . i shoved my brother again as i screeched out words from the bottom of my heart , telling her how much of a bother my brother had been . but that was uncalled for , because she already knew . she already knew he had been misbehaving lately . she called him to apologize to me , and as he croaked his apology i turned around and walked back to my room , heart pacing faster and faster . blood pumping with great pressure that i could feel them bulging beneath my skin . i was wild with flames and i wiped the saliva off my lips that had came spitting out when i yelled . i closed the door behind me , turned the volume up and tried to drown myself in music .

i thought , if he wants to use the pc , he could ask me . i would've let him to .
i wouldn't offer unless he asked .
no reason to .

and all this happened because of a computer and a house wall .
inanimate objects can kill .
they can strangle .
without hands , without feet ,
they can commit murder .
they can kill .