Lonely Is The Night

damn , fuck , as if i hadnt had enuff , dis fuckin dream come n pest me just now zZzZz ... n to make matters worse , it started raining ... aiz ...

thank god i had Air Supply to gimme my dose of oxygen to breath ...

anywayz when i reached home from skool my parents were at home cuz they take leave to send my sis away at da airport ... my mum asked me wat course i wanna take ? i realli speechless ... i realli wanna take psychology ... dats da onli thing i got talent in ... n i wanna use it to help ppl ... i dun wan ppl to be lost in da dark like i always used to ... i wan my experiences to be made useful to help others ... nobody on dis earth deserves to suffer from mental pressure or paranoid thoughts ... but i must admit now im still veri nub in passing my advises n thoughts to other ppl ... i cant help anyone yet in da pitiful state im currently in ...

anywayz i just gave a long silence n finally told my mum i dunno wat i wanna be ... if i say psychology , my dad will start skrewing me again ... n furthermore as far as i noe psychology graduates dun usually get good good jobs dat guarantee them a nice paycheck every month ...

skipped tuition , overslept till 4 den malas wanna wake up ... music was loud , so i shut it down so my parents wont realize im still sleepin on my bed ... slept til 6 ... n turned out me dad knew i skipped tuition >.< but he din skrew me or anything , haha nice , u da man dad xD den steamboat for lunch n dinner wif family ... i realize recently dat i am not da penjual ikan person i used to be ... dats a gud change ... tho i still put myself before anyone else ...

the one worthy of ur love , is someone who doesnt make u cry .

edit : oh yea cibai yen han ... i poke u abit abit oso wanna make such a big deal outta it ... like can cost marks like dat ... last exam keep pesting me keep turnin around n takin me stuffs when during exam i oso din say nething ... yea wat i did wasnt appropriate either , but its juz dat u noe lar , i hate hipocrisy !! a LOT !!