WISH I COULD TURN IT BACK

woke up today late den eat pau den went to skool ... had stomachache !!! so tahan tahan den sighzzz kimia peka cannot hantar cuz nid do graf , den tj handed me his cd which he claimed as `collected alot of dust` XD den hmm est started .. me din haf mood to write , juz wanna finish it fast den go rest ... but stomachache so strong , so i baring on da meja and write my jawapan la . finished da fastest i think =.= or maybe not ... bcuz my article i simply hentam oni . i din even put it `my own relevant point` as asked by da question >.< after habis doing it i asked to go toilet , went buy tissu from da bookstore den tried to shit but no hasil langsung , so i went to fon my house wit the change i got from tisu n asked my sis to tell my elder sis that come n fetch me later at 10.20 .

came back , rested n went to bed on da table . later on hantar tat time oni i realize rehat is 10.10 not 9.50 , so i went down n fon my sis again den call come now =.= so went outside ... andy teman me wait outside da skool compound ... da dumass guard din even peduli we go out or hidup or mati , mayb he tink we is murid petang la i dono la . anyway sis came den we went pejabat , so hard to go up to 1st floor cuz so many student goin down 2 rehat >.<

anyway at da pejabat need get a surat balik awal , cbk pn. hajah bidah is there !! DAMN !!! so she start asking rubbish question like , wat class i am , subjek apa saya akan ambil later , wat umur saya , all da bullcrap . den she start crapping about exam lar tis la tat la . n after i answer every of her question i will ask her `ok , boleh bagi saya surat itu tak ?` im like pain n she is like wan to talk cock n persuade me to stay ... aiyoyo , EST dun care la ! she tak pernah see ppl balik awal issit ?? no wonder many students rather ponteng without goin to da pejabat lar ! anyway finally she decided to stfu and gimme my surat . den balik lorrr ... tried to shit but to no avail so went down take a pau den went to bed for nearly 4 hrs .

had a weird dream , woke up at 2 with BOTH arms ran dry of blood ( one is under da pillow one is above the pillow but under my head so 2 arms oso kena press until blood no more ) . i tried to sit up but couldnt bcuz i got no arm to push me n support me to sit up , felt like org cacat ahahaha .

as for my dream ... well this one is like RPG type ? i dono . i dream i was walking home to skool , den walking pass the traffic light junction in front of dom's house suddenly hear bunyi musik , waaa rupa rupanya seorang budak telah mengeluarkan iPodnya dan berjalan-jalan . n da iPod can got speaker 1 . so i dengar dan goncang head until suddenly i terlanggar orang . da orang tak pasal pasal cedera parah so i nid bring him to a special treatment . den next thing was i pictured dragging da fella down a flight of stairs in a DESERT into a grand grand place that had Shadow of the Collosus landscape and building features ( for those who play it u shd noe it was a beautiful , grand YET almost barren landscape in my dream ) . in da middle of this underground `base` there was this circle there like the entrance to Ragnarok online's Ant Hell , except much much tinier and can onli fit a hand there . den tak pasal pasal da sick fella disappear from my dream , and i threw my weapon inside the hole . den it level up . at another end of that upwards tunnel ( i duno how to say , its like a tunnel dug from up to down den built with huge blocks of stones later on ) there was a place where wrongly-inserted weapons wud appear .

den erm after tat i brought 2 more frens ( who isnt from real life la of cuz ) den went there 2gether to level up our weapons , like a secret base . i duno y got weapons but its kinda weird lol , like spears etc. den sudenly we heard noises outside , out we go , see a black guy there , so we hid . he came in , i took a stick n hit him the moment he masuk the door . BUTTT no effect ! T.T so he start beating me n my frens up n finally we said `stop ! stop !` n ask him wat his purpose there for . he say cari gali stuff , n he cari gali a few unknown artifacts edi , den i said maybe we shd bekerjasama achieve our goals ( forgot la wat our goals are ) and make the tunnel our base . he supply us da artifacts he had den we do da job . den suddenly i WOKE UP ... man i hate dreams because they always , ALWAYS end that same boring way =.=

hmm eat a pau and a cake and a vitagen for lunch , later gonna eat another pau XD den erm ... here's an article which a forumer from blueserver stole from another forum regarding SATANISM . i must say when i read it it felt as tho ive been practising satanism all this while ... its not evil or anything , its just erm , a unique religion which has nothing to do with worshipping the devils . except there are certain parts where i dont coincidentally follow ahahah . anyway , here ya go , enjoy the long long read . or you can save it for later .

SATANISM

IMPORTANT! FULL EXPLANATIONS OF THE FOLLOWING VIEWS ARE FOUND AT THE BOTTOM OF THE POST IN THE LAWS OF EARTH SATATEMENTS AND SINS


I'm mainly posting about this because I've recieved alot of arrogant and ignorant bullshit pms regarding my "religion". Satanism has a bad name because we live in a society dominated by God and Christianity. It has been most recently unpopular with the rise of its music in Norway. Many have heard of the Church burnings but in actual fact not many of the culprits were even satanists. They were just black and death metallers. Anyway to fully explain the religion you must read the Satanic Bible. However for now here are a few things I have learned about Satanism since I have brought it into my life.

Nothing is sacred - There is no god. There is no Buddah. There is nothing that is worth getting down on our knees for. Humans are here for a very short time on this planet and we should make a good a name for ourselves as possible.

We do not take any bullshit - This is very important. The way that we have survived is not through being pushed around. If we are rained on we do not stand there and get wet. Always strike back as soon as you feel something is unfair.

Put your own happiness and you loved ones happiness above all others - Other people do not and cannot ever feel what you feel. Even if the self sacrifice is noble and unrewarding you must concider if they deserve it. This brings me swiftly onto the next point..

Only show love to those who deserve it - You cannot reward one for nothing. You do this and you are just giving a part of yourself away. You must always make sure that those close to you are really worthy of your trust and love.

Show no mercy - If your gut tells you that somebody is guilty of something then you must trust in it and do everything in your power to believe in it.

Instinct - This is very important. Once you listen to another opinion then your judgement will always be clouded. You must listen deep down to what your heart is telling you. Do not presume it just says don't listen to them. If you search your feelings you may find part of you tells you you really must listen to what they have to say.

Do not make others pay for your mistakes - This is also very important. If you are stressed then you must always make sure that if something bad that is going to happen to your opponent, that he or she is capable of dealing with it. Bottom line, DO NOT HARM CHILDREN OR ANIMALS.

There are many other views, especially on what other religions have done to the world.

Satanism is a mixture of Aetheism and Paganism.

I simply want to tell everybody out there that I didn't have to explain myself to you but obviously you are all to self indulge to free your mind for a second or two. Just concider it and think what you want. Your opinion doesn't matter that much.

To answer some questions that have come up in the thread so far

SATANISM IS NOT THE WORSHIP OF THE DEVIL

Believe me, thats devil worship. All the sacrifices and gore and stuff are things I always laugh at. Not to say I don't enjoy this ideaology of Satanism but it is incorrect. This modern Satanism is one that Anton LaVey spawned in 1966. The medievil views of things such as burning in hell and torture to all those against God is what links Satanism now to its roots. Back in the day when powerful Christians were feared and the Vatican could have you killed, there were those who would object to these views and were branded Satanists. There were of course radicals who would then go onto burn churches and sacrifice goats. This of course is the pagan aspect that most people get confused with today. This subject brings me onto the next major misunderstanding...

WHY IS SATANISM CALLED SATANISM IF YOU DON'T WORSHIP THE DEVIL?

Christians and other religions containing one ruling God. Christians, being the most popular religion ever since paganism died down, was always seen as the right way in society. There are those of us who do not see this as the right way and decide to question its teachings. Why must you give them money in the collection plate? Why must you beg for forgiveness? Why must you love something with out feeling its love in return? Why must you love your neighbour? Why must you ever do anything that questions how you really instinctively feel? This is why when people started disbeleiving these things they were seen as sacreligous, blasphemous and unholy. In christian tongue, all those three are embodied by Lucifer. So we were all officially branded Satanists. We do not worship the devil, God, Jesus, Abraham or Mohamed. We worship ourselves if we worship anything. We are ourselves Gods on this earth for we have the power to do whatever we want. We can be as reckless or as controlled as possible but at the end of the day, it doesn't really look natural when we are being controlled by people who we don't fully believe deserve any respect at all.

MOVING ONTO CONTREVERSIAL GROND...

What makes the Pope any better than you? Who is to say that a so called President appointed by god in earths bible belt makes him any less of a tyrant. Me, I don't like one bit how the world can place their lives in a group of people just for them to dictate anything and everything.

WELL HOW WHAT ABOUT LAVEY? WHAT MAKES HIM DIFFERENT?

Nothing. He is just a person who launched his views into the world. As a number of people opened their eyes and agreed with his beliefs they suddenly realised, I'm not being told what to do. I'm not controlled. I do things whch I feel are right. I am my own man.

Of course the world has always got its trump card....

WHAT ABOUT ALL THE VIOLENCE AND OBSCENE ACTIVITIES THAT IS LINKED WITH SATANISM?

I can answer that but first...What about all the violence and obscene activities linked with other religions? Some people will walk upon fire. Others handle snakes. Some people will commit suicide. Some will even cut off their foreskin. May I remind you that Christianity is not all clean. The church was once feared by all men. If you didn't abide by Gods law you were killed. The infamous Knights Of Templar were falsely put to death by Christians. Recently it even seems priests having been straying from the path. With Children.

There have always been extremeist in every religion and I cannot even begin to justify Church burnings or sacred murders. May I remind you though that they were not spontaneous nor were they random. They were all rooted to a belief. If you can figure it out for yourselves why religions choose to do different and seemingly tabboo things then I will gladly shake your hand, because there has not been a soul on earth who fully understands everything about every religion.

We do not rely on Satanism as a metaphor. Let me show you where LaVey was coming from...

Lucifer seen as by the Luciferians is the divine being of light and knowledge, the divine left path. The fact that their God hates this idea is irreavent. Lucifer is part of the humans and their spirit of being. It is a very touchy subject as Lucifarianism is not exactly widely accepted. What it is though is that ths is then translated as a metaphor based on different beliefs and philosphies. It sees Satan as human nature and then it does the key thing t all religions. It celebrates it. And boy does it celebrate it. Some of the other sects would do it through deity but we choose to to it through oneself. Oneself then becomes the god. This so carries onto a celebration of humans and human nature, which christianity defines as evil and which many people believe today that humans are evil. Not really as different and diverse as you thought huh. But see that reference there that is the humanism of Laveyan satanism not through a charitable experince where it involves everyone but instead a personal journey though life sampling the fruits of existance and having as godd a time as humanly possible. Around about there is where alot of drug refences once surfaced but they are deemed unnessecary highs as we can reach these feeling ourselves. Personal I just see it as unneccesary self harm but then again not all christians are anti gays are they. So now we arrive at a place in the 60s where nothing is sacred, one is ones own god and Lucifer was at the roots of it all. But no! Hang on! Satan? Lucifer? One being a god? Popular religions vomit in disgust, confusing shit is thrown onto Satanism to make it appear as low as you can g whether it is done through saying it is unholy or the way you prefer portraying it as nonsensical and generally rejecting it saying its a load of shit. The very reson I created this board man. So do not preach on how my religion is wrong or so help me I'll type something longer next time motherfucker.

Satanic Statements

1. Satan represents indulgence instead of abstinence!

2. Satan represents vital existence instead of spiritual pipe dreams!

3. Satan represents undefiled wisdom instead of hypocritical self-deceit!

4. Satan represents kindness to those who deserve it instead of love wasted on ingrates!

5. Satan represents vengeance instead of turning the other cheek!

6. Satan represents responsibility to the responsible instead of concern for psychic vampires!

7. Satan represents man as just another animal, sometimes better, more often worse than those that walk on all-fours, who, because of his “divine spiritual and intellectual development,” has become the most vicious animal of all!

8. Satan represents all of the so-called sins, as they all lead to physical, mental, or emotional gratification!



9. Satan has been the best friend the Church has ever had, as He has kept it in business all these years!

Satanic sins

1. Stupidity—The top of the list for Satanic Sins. The Cardinal Sin of Satanism. It’s too bad that stupidity isn’t painful. Ignorance is one thing, but our society thrives increasingly on stupidity. It depends on people going along with whatever they are told. The media promotes a cultivated stupidity as a posture that is not only acceptable but laudable. Satanists must learn to see through the tricks and cannot afford to be stupid.

2. Pretentiousness—Empty posturing can be most irritating and isn’t applying the cardinal rules of Lesser Magic. On equal footing with stupidity for what keeps the money in circulation these days. Everyone’s made to feel like a big shot, whether they can come up with the goods or not.

3. Solipsism—Can be very dangerous for Satanists. Projecting your reactions, responses and sensibilities onto someone who is probably far less attuned than you are. It is the mistake of expecting people to give you the same consideration, courtesy and respect that you naturally give them. They won’t. Instead, Satanists must strive to apply the dictum of “Do unto others as they do unto you.” It’s work for most of us and requires constant vigilance lest you slip into a comfortable illusion of everyone being like you. As has been said, certain utopias would be ideal in a nation of philosophers, but unfortunately (or perhaps fortunately, from a Machiavellian standpoint) we are far from that point.

4. Self-deceit—It’s in the “Nine Satanic Statements” but deserves to be repeated here. Another cardinal sin. We must not pay homage to any of the sacred cows presented to us, including the roles we are expected to play ourselves. The only time self-deceit should be entered into is when it’s fun, and with awareness. But then, it’s not self-deceit!

5. Herd Conformity—That’s obvious from a Satanic stance. It’s all right to conform to a person’s wishes, if it ultimately benefits you. But only fools follow along with the herd, letting an impersonal entity dictate to you. The key is to choose a master wisely instead of being enslaved by the whims of the many.

6. Lack of Perspective—Again, this one can lead to a lot of pain for a Satanist. You must never lose sight of who and what you are, and what a threat you can be, by your very existence. We are making history right now, every day. Always keep the wider historical and social picture in mind. That is an important key to both Lesser and Greater Magic. See the patterns and fit things together as you want the pieces to fall into place. Do not be swayed by herd constraints—know that you are working on another level entirely from the rest of the world.

7. Forgetfulness of Past Orthodoxies—Be aware that this is one of the keys to brainwashing people into accepting something new and different, when in reality it’s something that was once widely accepted but is now presented in a new package. We are expected to rave about the genius of the creator and forget the original. This makes for a disposable society.

8. Counterproductive Pride—That first word is important. Pride is great up to the point you begin to throw out the baby with the bathwater. The rule of Satanism is: if it works for you, great. When it stops working for you, when you’ve painted yourself into a corner and the only way out is to say, I’m sorry, I made a mistake, I wish we could compromise somehow, then do it.

9. Lack of Aesthetics—This is the physical application of the Balance Factor. Aesthetics is important in Lesser Magic and should be cultivated. It is obvious that no one can collect any money off classical standards of beauty and form most of the time so they are discouraged in a consumer society, but an eye for beauty, for balance, is an essential Satanic tool and must be applied for greatest magical effectiveness. It’s not what’s supposed to be pleasing—it’s what is. Aesthetics is a personal thing, reflective of one’s own nature, but there are universally pleasing and harmonious configurations that should not be denied.

Eleven rules of earth

1. Do not give opinions or advice unless you are asked.

2. Do not tell your troubles to others unless you are sure they want to hear them.

3. When in another’s lair, show him respect or else do not go there.

4. If a guest in your lair annoys you, treat him cruelly and without mercy.

5. Do not make sexual advances unless you are given the mating signal.

6. Do not take that which does not belong to you unless it is a burden to the other person and he cries out to be relieved.

7. Acknowledge the power of magic if you have employed it successfully to obtain your desires. If you deny the power of magic after having called upon it with success, you will lose all you have obtained.

8. Do not complain about anything to which you need not subject yourself.

9. Do not harm little children.

10. Do not kill non-human animals unless you are attacked or for your food.

11. When walking in open territory, bother no one. If someone bothers you, ask him to stop. If he does not stop, destroy him.